Friday, December 23, 2011

Grow Up!

Received a phone call yesterday.  Again, I didn't have to answer it, but since this person hadn't called on my birthday, and it's so close to the holidays, I opened my phone.  And was regretting it two minutes later.

"Happy belated birthday by the way....I'm sick with the stomach flu.  I need you to come take care of me."  Are you INSANE?  With everything I have to do?  Hell NO!

"No can do.  I'm wrapping gifts and doing last minute stuff.  You're just going to have to let it run its course."

"But my laundry is piling up....I haven't seen you in YEARS.....and oh, have you told E about S yet?"  You have family in the area; I am NOT going to drive down to do your laundry; and the last time I was in town, you couldn't be bothered to return my phone call!  And lately, the only time you call me is when you're whining about something!  So yeah, maybe this 'friendship' is getting a little one-sided....

"Yes, I told her last night.  She told me she was sorry and that she'd pray for us."

"That's IT?  No lecture?  No condemnation?"  OMFG...E has other things to worry about other than her adopted niece being pregnant....her husband's two nieces had kids at 17 also!  She's used to it, sadly enough....just as long as her own daughters behave themselves....."She must be mellowing out."

"Maybe.  Look, I've got to get going; I need to run to the store for milk and toilet paper.  Give me your new address so I can send your Christmas card out....Thanks; Merry Christmas and Happy New Year."

It's hard witnessing the last choking stages of a dying friendship.  In the past twenty-six years, she's been loyal; funny; supportive; and relieved when she 'came out' to me and I didn't judge her.  I was there for her when her relationships imploded.  I was there for her when her mom passed away.  And in the past three years since she's moved back to her hometown, she's reverted to an almost teenage mentality.

She calls me when she's sick.  When she's having issues with a destructive relationship.  When she's feuding with her family.  Or expecting me to drop everything and come take care of her.

I'm tired of listening to her drama.  I'm tired of her thinking everything's the same as it was twenty years ago. Why is it some people don't seem to grow up?

Sometimes I think the only reason two of my former best friends stay around is because "Hey, Molly's making a name for herself!  We might actually know a celebrity soon!"

And I do have a fear that if I end these friendships, they know too much about things I'd rather not divulge.  Not that I'll ever end up on TMZ or Extra or the tabloids....but my kids don't need to know everything!

Friday, November 25, 2011

Congratulate Me...

I've made it to six months w/o a Certain Person.  Yes, we're sort of still in touch; I emailed CP when all hell broke loose last month, and CP emailed back with sympathies.  I still feel pain when I think about the events over the past year (or two), but as long as CP is happy, I'm happy.

And something continues to tell me it's not over yet.  You just don't let 25 years of friendship die because the one you love's career not taking off like you'd hoped!

The longest we've ever gone w/o contact is 2 years.  And that was before the advent of email.  Since email, our 'benchmark' is 18 months.  So we'll see what happens this time next year.

I've gone as long as a month w/o emailing, and it produced weekly emails from CP, sometimes three per day.  That proves CP values our friendship.

Tuesday, November 15, 2011

OMG....What's Wrong With Me?

So I've been skipping over the sex scenes again.  Even in the sensual ones.  For instance, I just finished one of my favorite books by Ms CSP, about a dragon.  And only skimmed the sex scenes, reading the dialogue.  Which isn't that unusual; I go through cycles all the time.

But I just popped over to one of my favorite blogs and discovered today's post features six bare-chested me in various positions.  Just pick one which rings your bells and explain why in the comments and you might win a free book.  There are already 23 comments.

My problem?  I don't like any of them.  So what does that say about me?  Am I finally reached that stage of my life where a bare-chested, BUILT man doesn't turn me on?

Or am I just jaded?  After all, I have the man I want and he's none of those men.  They also all look the same.  Or it could be just the winter blahs setting in.

Just attended one of those annoying 'real time' chats...the kind where you have to type at the speed of light/interrupt everyone instead of replying to a post?  One of the authors has-get this- a 50-page MEMOIR.  Are you KIDDING me?  Fifty PAGES?  I think my love life from age 12-25 fills THAT much!  And while hers is admittedly about her disability and how she's overcome it, I still think a memoir should be longer....and the publisher is going to print this short story 'memoir'?  I'm contract says a book only meets print standards if it is 70K or more.  But I guess this is what happens when you're an 'inspiration' and a 'pet' author.

Video conferencing was tossed out as a 'gee, wouldn't this be nice?' But I say, I like the anonymity of the chat; no one can see me gagging, rubbing my fingers together, or rolling my eyes.  I don't know; maybe I'm just having one of those cynical nights.  But I found this annoying.

Wednesday, October 26, 2011

Always Trust Your Gut....

I've suspected for several weeks now my daughter wasn't being honest with me, and keeping tabs on her cycle has had me praying for two weeks.  Now, a conversation yesterday and a confrontation this morning has confirmed my worst fears:  My 17 year old daughter may have just encountered a huge life choice.

Her boyfriend is a narcissistic know it all; bi-polar; and schitzophrenic.  He was expelled from high school last year at this time.  When they began dating in late November, I wasn't thrilled with him, but he was polite and liked 80's music.  The spouse, however, hated him on sight and after New Year's, refused to have him in the house.  Super Bowl Sunday arrived, and a huge blowup between the spouse, the daughter, and E.  Daughter followed E out the door.  And a huge family war erupted.  We almost had to declare her a runaway (she returned home and agreed to cooperate); E put in jail (for trespassing and for threatening Face Book messages); and feared for our safety.

Eventually, I did get her into counseling, which seemed to work.  They broke up/got back together/broke up again every month.  E ruined a family dinner at Applebee's b/c of texting her constantly throughout the meal.  When we returned home, she jumped out of the car and ran into his arms, begging him to take her back.

Recently, he's gotten upset over her stomach illness.  And she broke up with him (returned his class ring) for 3 days before taking him back.

This morning she admitted they are sexually active.  And using condoms.

My daughter's last period was the week of Sept. 5th.  Do the math; she's 2-3 weeks late.

I really don't want her to have a child with his half of the DNA code.  So I'm hoping fervently this is a false alarm, and we can go get her tubes tied  get her on the Pill.

I'm admittedly pro-choice; I believe in the woman's right to choose.  I had a scare once and went to the free clinic and saw the films.  Decided right then and there I'd never do it, but would rather have it safe and legal than illegal and have women die for their choices.

I'm also pro-adoption.  I have a good friend whose son is adopted, and I love him like one of my own.

For my daughter, I'd push for Option #1.  But during a conversation about options, she declared she's against it.  Okay; there's Option #2 and wonder about it the rest of my life....but at the same time, my daughter is in NO WAY ready for this kind of responsibility.  She wants to go to college and be a Vet Tech.  Or a dog trainer.

My youngest was born when she was 10.  Did that teach her NOTHING about what babies are like?  She always said she wasn't going to have one after seeing what her brother was like.  I'd hoped she remembered it.

Yes, my daughter is good with other people's kids.  And animals adore her.  But is she ready for this consequence?  I don't think so.

Next step is to get her to the clinic for the test.

After that I'll know if I'll need the strength to tell her father.

Wednesday, October 19, 2011

If It Walks Like A Duck, Quacks Like A Duck, then YES, It's A DUCK!

A friend and I were discussing publishers/author forums/agents etc...when she piped up about a forum thread she'd recently visited, and suggested I check it out.  And the following rant popped up on one of my loop digests:

"I think I'm a fair person, and a good publisher. I have never said we're the best or no.1. My goal with XYZ Publishing  is to slowly grow as a team and make headway in the publishing world. We'll be turning two years old soon.......
 People will talk, to try and make themselves look and feel important. Often they just make themselves look ignorant.  I have learned from past mistakes, I move on and I hope become stronger and smarter. I will likely make mistakes again, being a human being with normal frailties. 
XYZ Publishing has undergone  a massive reconstruction project internally.  At this point in time  we are brimming  with new loyal staff that will only make us  a more effective publishing house. We have exciting, new projects and new series....
Remember this is your publishing company; we work for you. You are the ones that make XYZ Publishing move forward; without you we are nothing. Without a good team of exceptional authors, we cannot continue to grow. My promise to you is that I will do my utmost to keep everyone satisfied. Regardless of what has been said or posted on line, we are moving forward. Many of these postings are by the same people. Some are former staff members who have moved on to start their own publishing houses based on our model, based on our guidelines and publishing contracts. Upon leaving, they had nearly destroyed XYZ Publishing by deleting and destroying all of our business files and emails. A handful of authors followed them  because they didn't have the patience to wait during our first year and now have actually stopped writing altogether or have moved on. And honestly many have asked to return to us, but I have turned them down. We don't need people who do not return our loyalty. We want professional authors, high quality fiction and non-fiction manuscripts on our desk, something that is original not just typed for the sake of becoming published. If you want that, go ahead and self- publish. You will have all of the control but one word of warning: Read over your contract and make sure YOU understand what you are signing because you can't terminate easily, nor will they let you just walk away without  your books in hand. You'll will end by buying the stock and more. We have never stated we're POD. We have never said we don't promote, nor have we ever accepted a manuscript without being considered first,  this is in reference to a Yahoo Answer posting. 
Furthermore, we have always abided by your publishing contracts which is a worldwide legal and binding document. If you don't like how we run our business and promote, then please let us know up front. Suggestions and ideas are always welcome you all have my email address and each of our staff  so email us. It may take a while to get back to you. 

We move on, and with the authors who are dissatisfied, what can I say?  You have your own reasons, however being demanding is not very professional of you. It will reflect badly on you as an author. 

All of our authors have been with us since day one. 
You're all doing a super job! 

Thanks to all of the new authors and to all of our authors for putting your trust in us as a publisher, as we have put our trust and invested in you." 

First of all, I've NEVER seen this much griping on loops/chat forums about any specific publisher unless it involved unfair practices (given the recent upheaval over at AMP, which I'm not a part of, this company may soon go the way of...) or suddenly closing its doors and leaving authors hanging.  I've been watching this company (labeled XYZ to protect myself and their identity) and am not thrilled about certain aspects.  Sometimes it's like dealing with children; they need to be led through directions or told over and over when details don't seem to be sinking in to the brain cells.  Or, maybe they don't have a good grasp of the English Language?  Then why are you promoting here?  I don't speak Cantonese, so I don't dare open my mouth on a Chinese chat loop and try to promote my work!

Secondly, I'm mentioned as one of the authors 'who have been with us since Day 1'....ummm, no, I wasn't.  And I don't appreciate my name being used to 'tout' your 'professionalism'.

I've had to repeatedly scream to get emails answered.  I was not happy with the editing on my book.  But it's out, and for that I thank them.  I was NOT happy with being offered a contract on a book which I'd sent as a 'so is this the kind you're looking for' feeler.  The MS was NOT 'clean', and even the attached contract wasn't for ME.  How did they mess THAT up?

And then another author spoke up in defense.  Again, names have been changed.  And if the 'confidentiality clause' has been breached, remember; this was NO private email.  I lifted it from the loop where no one had snipped it in their responses.  This was NOT a 'private' email.


I did not read the original post to which (the author) replied, nor her reply,
but I have been made aware of what happened.

When I discovered XYZ, my gut instinct told me I had found a home for my
writing. I am not a newbie--far from it--I have 54 print books to my credit
and have had over 50 e-books published

But two years later she's still in business, so unlike this other fellow,
she must be doing a lot RIGHT, too.

One thing right she does--unlike the guy who went under, (owner) is ALWAYS
available to us writers. She's reachable. She's responsive. Got a question,
a complaint, a suggestion, a request? Contact her. She'll talk to you.

*Yeah....right.  Only if you're one of her 'pets', apparently...*

And then there's (another employee). What can I say about her that doesn't sound
wildly prejudiced in her favor? And I admit it--in the relatively short time
I have known her she has become truly one of my dearest friends. Simply, I love her--she is that close a friend to me. So of course I'm prejudiced in her favor. But, figure it: She wouldn't
have gotten to be my dear friend if she had exhibited other than honest and
fair dealings, helpfulness, and a raft of other marvelous attributes. 

I've met other helpful, talented, and NICE people among the XYZ staffers,
too. So what was the beef with the gal who pulled the nasty yesterday?

I'm told part of her issue was that her books weren't selling. Well, guess
what--mine aren't exactly setting sales records either. But you know what?
I'm in it for the long haul and I believe that as XYZ slowly grows (and I do believe that it will), more and more people will discover XYZ, and more and more people will buy my
XYZ-published books.

Four other e-publishers have at least one book of mine each. One puts her
sales figures up for all the authors to see. NONE of her books--by ANY of
her authors--is selling worth a damn. With another of my publishers, I am
aware of the sales figures for four other authors besides myself. The most
copies any of their books has sold was 11. Eleven copies! Hardly a sales

My point? There are damn few e-publishers making large sales. (I am aware of
one that is--but only on a few of their books. They are the EXCEPTION, NOT
THE RULE.) So if this person who started all this ruckus thinks she's going
to do better by jumping ship, she is in for a rude awakening.

Yet I do believe that e-publishing is the future. There will always be a
place for print books too, but in five or 10 years, most books will be read
on Kindles and Nooks and iPads and the like. And if we all hang in and wait
as patiently as we can, readers will discover us. "Us" meaning both each of
us individual writers and XYZ overall.

Meanwhile I know (owner) is working her little tushy off to keep XYZ running
as well as it can, with a HUGE amount of help and input and HARD WORK. And I mean to still be here for the third anniversary, and the fifth, and the tenth, and.... I hope all of you hang in there too.

As I said earlier, when I first discovered XYZ, my gut told me I had found
a home. I still believe that.

Do the rest of you stand with me?

*Ummm....if I ever have another MS which no one wants to touch, then I MIGHT come back.  In the meantime, I continue to promote this work, because I DO love the story I wrote, but other than that, Publisher XYZ is getting minimal loyalty from me.  I refuse to sing their praises, and if someone asks me about them, I politely send them elsewhere, where I am MUCH happier, and my emails are answered in a MUCH timelier manner.  Plus, everyone's on the same page as far as promotion dates and times, and no one screaming about time zones.*

And I went to the author forum my friend recommended and had a good laugh at the 'damage control/spin' which took place as they scrambled to defend themselves.

If this had been an isolated event, I might not have felt the need to vent.  But this is roughly the 4th letter in the last year where the owner has pleaded with people to 'disregard the nastiness being spread' or other authors/employees coming to her defense on loops, or from what I  saw in the forum, EIGHT PAGES of conversations dating back to 2006, with the most recent one being last month.  All replies have been with typos, wrong wordage (all called on the carpet by those who felt the need to point it out), and I suspect, the same person using different user names. 

And now even the owner's brother and Significant Other (SO) have leaped to her defense...

(And I didn't know he was her BROTHER!)I'm an author with XOXO Publishing have been since day one.  I love my sister dearly, sometimes she still drives me insane even at her age. I don't have much to say except that (she) is very hardworking and her determiination to succeed not only as a best selling author, but also as  publisher. I'm very happy that she has a team working with her.  To all of the authors hang on cause (she) has a few projects up her sleeves that no other publisher has and it will shock and shake....

And I happen to know this is the owner's SO, who also runs her legal dept.  Isn't this a conflict of interest?  "I was one of XYZ's first employee, along with (two others). I saw this company being built from scratch. With the same determination and  drive she went out and tried to make a name for herself. She also saw that there was a need and demand for ebooks here published in different languages beside English and French. 
(She) took it upon herself to try and change this which she is succeeding. She went out to get the best staff to achieve her goals unfortunately along the way some former staff members, I'm not naming names
here decided to take advantage of the situation by taking company property, and following our own business plan. However, this was only a small set back she brushed herself off and took a step back and asked herself was this worth it. In spite of all of these problems plus her own cancer issues, and family crises, she has endured and is continuing today. I will say something on the day of her surgery, that former employee called her repeatedly and (she) still responded to her and to the authors demand even in the recovery room and after that. Furthermore, through this very hard time trying to recuperate from her operation there are still authors and former staff members still doubting if this was true. I say to all of you, do not doubts or have any type of disbelief of this woman does not work every day 110% to ensure that XYZ Publishing succeed and the authors book sell. 

So I say to all of you authors out there who are not promoting yourself or giving 110% just like this woman is and all of our staff promoting your books. Do not blame us that your sales are so low. (We) have been posting dates, locations and time of all Promotional groups and event for all of our published books that are suitable for your genres. We have repeated stated this in our groups, and even on Facebook and other types of means including personal emails. Yet a few of you still demanding for reasons. It is true that our website is not ready and it is being revamped. It is again unfortunate that the old webmaster did not fulfill his obligations. This includes the automated sales report. We have and I have stated this a few times to please bare with us until it is completed*.
However having our website revamped does not mean, that the promotions stops or it cannot be done on your part or if you hire someone to do it for you they cannot promote. A word of warning make sure that you investigate these people prior to paying them anything. Remember they work for you, you do not work for them and this includes literary and other agents! I have been notified many times by different parties crying to us they have paid  for agencies to promote them, agents to represent them and they got nothing at all. Also another point which Gina warned you and bought up again regarding self publishing. Make sure that you read your contact completely. 
Because once you sign you are obligated legal and binding. Not only will they ask you for money upfront to publish your book there maybe hidden fees such as shipping, handling, taxes, distributions, editing and book cover designing. This depends on whom you are self publishing with.
I want to say that in the next few months we are re-evaluating all authors contracts, all old will renewed with higher royalties and authors benefits.

In regards to promotions, for those of you that , are not following our marketing and promotional suggestions from (us) or on their own we will terminating your contract. Gina has taken it upon herself to teach marketing and promotions on line and chat once her book, The Art of Self Promotions is released next month. She is testing it now with a few authors, and our authors will be invited to attend once it's ready. 

With a few of you that have followed her guidelines Congratulations you are actually on the bestsellers list as we all know. d my views and news and I'm going to post something next week which is important.

Legal Division"

And another thing which infuriates me:  We have a promo chat day.  So I show up to chat.  I post my info and try to engage others in conversation.  Noooo.....since I'm not one of the 'pets', I'm ignored.  So F*** them.  I'll post and run, which I HATE doing, btw.  Have we forgotten chatting helps readers learn about authors and see their personality?  If an author won't 'chat' with me, then I probably will NOT buy their books.   Which is probably a good thing; my TBB list is full of much friendlier authors! 

And I plead with my two followers:  Please keep this confidential!  Even if you know which company is truly XYZ, please keep this to yourself.  This is just my place to rant in private; if you feel the need to defend them, by all means, do so in the comments.  I will let you vent; I will NOT engage you in a discussion.  That's why I'm posting this here, and not on my other blogs.  I do not promote this page; please do not promote it.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Asinine Question At 3am....

"What day is it?"
"Huh?  What time is it....okay, it's Wednesday."
"No it's not; I just came to bed, so it's technically still Tuesday.  Did I take any of my meds today?"
"I don't know..."
"Why not?  That's your job; to keep track of my meds."  He gets out of bed.  "Apparently, I took Friday's on Monday, and didn't take any today."
Okay; so what's the problem?  Come back to bed and just skip a day....

"I've got a problem; come in here and help me, damn it!"

I get out of bed and go into the kitchen, where he is staring at his pill tray.

"You didn't fill....what day?"
"I filled it all but Saturday night; you griped at me the last time you forgot to take them on Saturday.  All you have to do is put today's meds into Friday's compartment, and you'll be back on track.  It's not going to hurt you to miss one day."  I go back to bed.
"Okay, but if I drop dead, it will be your fault."

Oh my freaking god.....I refuse to give in to this guilt trip and go back to sleep.  Four days later, when I have time to rant about this, he's still very much alive and kicking!

He's 57 years old...can't he keep track of his own damn meds?  Maybe he's in the early stages of dementia?  He's only been 'officially' retired since May, and 'unofficially' since October 2009, though we didn't realize it until March 2010.

I've made a point of putting his med tray beside the coffee pot in the mornings; so far he's on track.  And maybe it was momentary panic which caused him to lose his common sense; or maybe he hadn't put anyone on a guilt trip that week, so I was the 'lucky' recipient at 3am?


Sunday, October 9, 2011

Trying Too Hard??

OMG...I actually saw this several months ago, but now our /priest and DRE are bringing it to our attention:  The Catholic Church has 'discovered' our current translation of the Latin Mass isn't 'exact'.  So now, rather than reprint the books (or maybe they are....), Fr. Dave is having cards printed and laminated so no one has to go 'leafing through' the books to find the correct spot.

My questions are, 1)  who cares if it's not an 'exact' translation?  and 2) why can't people find their way through the books?

Okay; I suppose if someone fluent in Latin was 'appalled' at the translation, this would make sense.  And if something in English were translated the wrong way is, say, Cantonese, and enough people were there to complain, yes, I think an uproar would call for a change.

And in defense of the books, we have a large elderly population in our church.  So I understand the cards....and most of the parish remembers when the entire service was in Latin.

But here's what I DON'T get:  It just seems to me this is another attempt to 'get it right'.  As if they don't make this change, every Catholic is doomed from Heaven, simply because they didn't 'do it' the 'right' way.   Let's revisit something:  In order to be saved/get into Heaven, the requirements are:

-Acknowledge Christ died for our sins

-Have faith in God above.

Where does that say anything about the language to use when praying/conducting the service?

And another thing which bugs me:  Before every meeting (at least for parents; no clue if this happens during Parish Council or Finance Committee), we open with a recitation of a printed prayer.  Why can't the leader or Fr. Dave pray spontaneously?  Even when my MIL passed, Fr. Dave led us in the Lord's Prayer (The 'Our Father', they call it).

I just think they're trying too hard.  Lighten up, people!

Monday, September 26, 2011

OMG...Seriously? I've Done It AGAIN?

Accidentally sparked an immigration debate yesterday on FB.  A friend posted the following on her page; I liked it, so I copy/pasted it to my wall in the NAME OF PATRIOTISM.  It even states 'I'm not against immigration', but apparently three of my friends missed that part.  One even unfriended me (and now his post is missing, but his private message is at the bottom).  All names have been removed except mine.

From LS:
Our fathers watched as their fathers died in WW II, and watched as their friends died in Vietnam. My friends have died in Afghanistan and Iraq. None of them died for the Mexican Flag, chinese flag, or any other flag. Everyone died for the U.S. flag. Just this week, in Texas , a student raised a Mexican flag on a school flag pole; another student took it down. Guess who was expelled... the kid who took it down. Kids in high school in California were sent home on Cinco de Mayo because they wore T-shirts with the American flag printed on them. Enough is enough. The message below needs to be viewed by every American; and every American needs to stand up for America. We've bent over to appease the America-haters long enough. I'm taking a stand. I'm standing up because the hundreds of thousands who died fighting in wars for this country, and for the U.S. flag can't stand up. If you agree, stand up with me. And shame on anyone who tries to make this a racist message. A Map Of My Country: Let me make this perfectly clear! THIS IS MY COUNTRY! And, because I make this statement DOES NOT mean I'm against immigration!!! YOU ARE WELCOME HERE, IN MY COUNTRY! Welcome -To come through legally: 1. Get a sponsor! 2. Get a place to lay your head! 3. Get a job! 4. Live By OUR Rules! 5. Pay YOUR Taxes! 6. Learn the LANGUAGE like immigrants have in the past!!! AND 7. Please don't demand that we hand over our lifetime savings of Social Security Funds to you. If you don't want to forward this for fear of offending someone, Then YOU'RE PART OF THE PROBLEM! When will AMERICANS STOP giving away THEIR RIGHTS??? We've gone so far the other way... bent over backwards not to offend anyone. But it seems no one cares about the AMERICAN CITIZEN that's being offended! WAKE UP AMERICA!!! United We Stand! Like ·  · 9 hours ago

    • (JB)

      The New Colossus - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
      ‎"The New Colossus" is a sonnet by Emma Lazarus (1849–1887), written in 1883 and...See More
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    • (JB) looks like this started a lot of the problem:

      Immigration Act of 1924 - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
      The Immigration Act of 1924, or Johnson–Reed Act, including the National Origins...See More
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    • (JB) another possible cause:

      Immigration restrictions - Eugenics in the United States - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia
      The Immigration Restriction League was the first American entity associated offi...See More
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      (JB) looks like i have quite a bit to learn about this subject.

    • History of laws concerning immigration and naturalization in the United States - Wikipedia, the free
      The first naturalization law in the United States was the Naturalization Act of ...See More
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    • (SM) I am American and find this post very offensive. After having dealt personally with immigration I realize it is not actually as simple as that. Being a parent I know that i would go to any means necessary to work and support my family. I can not condemn anyone for doing the same.
      8 hours ago · Like ·   1 person

    • (JR) When my great grandmother immigrated to this country she did it the legal way. That is what most Americans who support legislation in opposition to illegal immigration are asking for, do it legally. No, doing things the legal way may not be easy. No one said things would be easy. My great-great grandfather had to send some of his children back home and bring them over later because he refused to pay the doctor a bribe to pass one of the children on their health exam. He had to wait five years to send for them. It was hard, painful but was done the legal way. As a parent I find one of the most important lessons I can teach my son is integrity. What am I teaching him if I say when times are hard, we can ignore the rule of law and do what we want because it benefits us? This argument is not simple, it's not easy and won't be solved in a soundbite or a facebook post. And pasting someone as ignorant or racist because they disagree with you is the height of an ignorant response. This is not about race or ethnicity. It's about doing things the right way. If someone moved into your home without permission you wouldn't say, "Oh, that's okay." You'd call the police.We welcome those who enter legally.
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    • (SR) I agree with this completely Molly and I'm proud of you for posting the thoughts I have tried to share with others. I know an illegal Mexican who bragged about being paid $2 an hour more for the same job my boyfriend did and not paying taxes to boot because he helps bring other illegals here to work. He has been here many years but refuses to become legal because he committed murder in Mexico and is hiding out here with our assistance. On top of that, he tried to seduce me away from my guy right in front of him. Clearly there is something wrong with his thinking and those who allowed him to think his behavior was acceptable.
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    • (SR) I did warn Brad that he was dangerous and he found out the hard way when he borrow money from him once and Jessie showed up the following payday with a gang of illegals threatening to beat him up if he did pay him back. Then had the balls to ask me if I wanted to go down the hallway to Brad's bedroom and give him a f'ing blowjob. Thank God Brad threw him out before I called the cops. I suspect he only chose to leave after seeing me open my cell phone and start dialing 911. Some people don't deserve a chance. His wife finally kicked him out because he was cheating on her but I'm sure his family is still enjoying the food stamps our tax dollars provided for them.
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    • Molly Daniels I'd have still called the police. Jeez, the drama you get caught up in...;)
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    • (SR) Drama does seem to like following me, but it's not what I want in my life. Do I seriously have to write that story about our next revolution to make my point? Anyone who wants to come to this country legally is welcome even though it is no easy chore to become an American citizen. If they choose to stay illegal then don't expect to receive those benefits our tax dollars pay for unless they are also paying into the system that welcomes them. Clearly we have a use for them or they wouldn't be here, but that doesn't make them "entitled" to a free ride at our expense.
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    • (SR) I agree with Jacqueline. The real problem here goes back to decisions our elected government officials want to impose on us so that they can get more votes to stay in office. They are the true looters of this country. I believe most Mexicans here are probably hard workers looking for that "American dream" and most of the jobs they take the rest of us don't want to do, but once we start changing the laws or just ignoring them we send a message to that minority group of illegals who think the law enforcers have their back and they can do anything or take anything they want. When a small community like Oaktown has to live in fear of going out after dark in their own hometown or leaving their teenage daughters home alone only to have a gang of thugs break in rape their daughter, beat her, then leave her body in a field for dead there is a problem with the system that tolerates such behavior. And when you hear the rest of that sad but true story that the news won't share with you and realize that the farmer who employed those thugs sent them somewhere else to work to protect them from prosecution you have to wonder what is wrong with the citizens we call neighbors that put their own at risk to protect their cheap laborers. These are indeed very sad and frightening times.

      (via private message):
      "If you are are going to post things on a public forum you have to understand that not 

      everyone will agree. I'm suggesting you research this matter more. This same level of 

      narrow minded self righteousness and fascism led to one race thinking they were pure 

      and killing many innocent people. That was a big part of World War 2 that you even 


      The days of "if you don't have anything nice to say, don't say anything at all" are over 

    • when we become adults and have to face cold hard truths. What you posted was 

    • equally offensive to several people, even people you know, but you didn't think about 

    • that. It seems like you were more focused on pushing an agenda of intolerance. 

    • Friends should be able to be honest. If you don't want an honest response to 

    • something you post, don't be friends with educated people who research topics and 

    • speak their mind.
  • If you can't stand up for what you believe in you to have a stronger convictions. Their are two sides to every debate. Usually one is right and one is wrong.Nobody ever convinced someone they were right by not sticking up for what they believe in.
(My reply):  
    I'm sorry you felt the need to unfriend me; I posted it with patriotism in mind, NOT to 

  • spark an immigration debate. I will take it down since the comments are getting out of 

  • control. No offense was ever intended.

(His response):  
    • I'm not unfriending you in life. It's just not a 
      secret that you and I don't agree on a majority of 
      issues and your posts frustrate me from time to 
      time. I think the best way to avoid this problem 
      is to not have to read them. I'm very known for 
      speaking my mind. I'm also well read and able to 
      do that and I'm not looking to pick debates with 
      people. I just hope you will research this and 
      other issues further before you post more 

      (My response to that):  (((((HUGS)))))


      I had also posted AFTER I saw the first several comments the following:

      What happened to 'if you can't say something nice, don't say anything at all'?  I'm choosing not to defend my opinion.  You have your right to yours; I choose to not let friendship stand in the way.

      I was hoping that would smooth things over; 
      after all, I have as much right to post my opinion 
      as anyone.  Apparently, once again, I can post 
      sexually explicit material; proclaim any LIBERAL 
      opinions, but the minute I dare post 'I believe in 
      God' or 'I LOVE my country', I get shot down.  

      Told another friend (private message) 'Doesn't 
      the 1st Amendment apply to EVERYONE 
      anymore?  Or is it only those with the LOUDEST 
      voices?  OMG....Animal Farm all over again....'

      So yeah....shaking my head over here.

Sunday, July 31, 2011

I Haz The Rage...

Do I expect too much from people?

All I want is some common sense, follow through on plans, and act like an intelligent human being.

The SU and I have been together now for 20.5 years. When I met him, I was only interested in friendship; he took me out to eat when I broke up with my boyfriend, and he was available to pick me up when I wrecked my car on my parents' 25th anniversary. And two years later, I'd not seen him in a while and he offered a way out of a disastrous relationship.

We began dating; I didn't see it lasting. He was full of plans and ideas for the future, and when circumstances dictated we get married, well, I did a stupid thing.

I allowed him to yell at me and make me feel guilty. I tolerated it for several years, taking the blame when everything went wrong financially. After all, I was the one who caused it, and was not contributing.

And then I found my backbone. And decided to find happiness in my own small ways. And for a while, I was content with life.

Yes, I married a man who talks a good game, but never follows through. When he has the time for things, he never has the money to do it. Conversely, when he has the money and the means to do certain things, there's never any time. Or, his heart acts up. His sugar spikes.

The past two months, his 'grandkids' have been with us. Here's the family dynamic: His adopted sister has a daughter whom my SU practically raised from the time she was 18 months until age six. She calls him 'Uncle', but sends him Father's Day cards. Therefore, her two children are his 'grandchildren', even though there's no blood relation. Confused? Don't worry; you're not alone!

Anyway, back in May, J calls me, b/c Miss Drama Queen and Mr. Energy want to spend a week with us. ME has summer school, beginning in June, so if we do not take them Memorial Day weekend, then it won't be until July. Since she has car issues, and we were going to be in Indy anyway, and she happens to live w/in walking distance of the 500 track, it seemed logical to grab them then, so we did. Three days later, she calls. Turns out her deadbeat boyfriend didn't pay her May rent, so she has to move. Summer school won't be happening. I decided to keep the kids for the summer while she got her act together.

I start Aunt Molly's Summer Reading Program for all three kids, since mine needs tutoring and a friend offered to do it. Well, things went sour on her end and now we've only had three tutoring sessions all summer. I hope my efforts have paid off; I'll find out soon. Anyway, back to MDQ and ME.

During the month of June, ME had anger issues. Hit his sister, picked fights. In July, he's doing better with the anger.

MDQ, on the other hand, sometimes acts as if she doesn't have a brain in her head. She whines over the littlest thing, and overreacts to pain or different situations. Drives. Me. INSANE! Sometimes I feel we need to just wrap her in bubble wrap to keep her from injury. Granted, when she arrived here, she had strep throat. But since then, she's had a UTI and is now heading for a sinus infection. Plus has been through six boxes of Band Aids. We bought 4 three weeks ago, and thankfully only one has been used. Maybe the injuries are starting to become fewer? I don't fuss over her injuries; I simply clean her up and send her on her way. Or, if it happens too often, then yeah, I get annoyed by her 'OH it HURTS!' Shut up; there's no blood; get over it!

I've noticed if she's not the center of attention, suddenly she's pouting; has a headache; 'everyone is being mean' short, 'Poor Me' (can I gag?)

I must be suffering from an extreme form of PMS, because I unloaded on everyone today. All summer I've been talking about my mini-HS reunion. I decided to skip a local festival a) b/c I wasn't expecting any releases until September and b) the reunion is the same day. Plus, it's the Grandkids' b-day (yup, born one year apart on the same day.)

So I've tried to pin down my spouse as to plans. I would like to take them to the water park; then to my mom's; and off to my reunion. On Sat, take the kids to Indy; go swimming with them/celebrate their b-day; return to my mom's in time for pitch-in, karaoke/concert.

He starts yelling about gas prices and how all I want to do is spend his money. I start offering compromises; I'll be willing to forego Sat night. We can come home after the kids' b-day party. He still isn't happy.

Fine; I'll have my dad come get me Friday, and have him drive me to Indy to meet everyone on Sat. He says that's not fair to my father. And that's where he stopped talking about it.

I unloaded on the kids at the library. Every time we go, I tell them to WALK, not run. What does ME and my youngling do as soon as we get inside? Run for the Youth Dept. Jump down the stairs. I heard a shriek in the sunroom as I was looking for a particular book.

I'd had enough. I rounded them up and we went to the car. Took them home, and then went back by myself.

Hadn't been home two minutes when MDQ tripped and fell. I have a little bit of sympathy for her, because I did the same thing myself last month at the neighbor's house. But she's not bleeding. 'My fiiiiiinnnnngggeeerrrrrrr huuuuurrrrts.....I think I broooke it....' No, it's not broken. I had her run it under cold water and she's fine now.

Our shower is in the basement, and yeah, it's a little complicated. I take MDQ down and start the shower, then I sit down there with her until she's finished. She can shut it off; just can't start it. But what really drove me insane tonight is this: She stripped off her clothes and hopped in...'I forgot my jammies....and my towel...oh, and my underwear....and can you get me a wash cloth?"

The child is going to be ten years old next Sat. Her younger brother collects his clean underwear and towel before he gets in the shower; why the hell can't she? Before we cut her hair last week, yeah, I'd have to help her with the shampoo/conditioner. But now it's easier for her to do herself. When my daughter was ten, she was more than capable of taking care of her own hair!

And the hair itself is an issue: Granted, the spouse was only supposed to take an inch or so off. Well, he got clipper-happy, and her once-shoulder length hair is now around her ears. Looks cute. And as I stated earler, a lot cooler for her and easier to care for.

But she doesn't like the way it kinks up. "Everyone will make fun of my hair'. NO THEY WON'T! So what does her mom say? "I'm getting her hair extensions for her b-day." The CHILD is TEN!

Oh, and J was supposed to move into an apartment tomorrow. Well that's not going to happen now, because it's no longer available. Now her plan is to move in with her mom, giving her money every week. Kids will ride the bus and maybe stay with a friend of hers before and after school, since J works 7am-5:30pm and three times a week 11pm-6am. My question is, when is she going to be a PARENT?

I offered to keep them and send them to school down here. We have the TIME to be involved; both kids want to be in scouts. That ain't gonna happen if they go home. But J misses her kids and wants them with her. I just saw my SIL post on FB "I feel very overwhelmed at this point

in time. When you try to keep things simple one moment at a time you get hit with so much..."

I wanted to comment, 'Oh, did J tell you her 'plan'?

J and the kids lived with her from 2009-2010. SIL was NOT happy with the way things were

going then. Last year at this time, J sent the kids to another aunt's in Wisconsin, with the plan

being she would move up there. Well, her health went sour. Kids returned Thanksgiving, after

J had her appendix out, gall bladder checked, and is still having issues. Oh, and according to

the kids, her deadbeat boyfriend cheated on her twice, but she took him back 'because I LOVE

him' (insert whiny voice). MDQ can't stand him. Get a clue; your kids come FIRST!

SIL has said if J hasn't gotten her act together by Aug, she's taking the kids away permanently.

I'm waiting to see if that happens, or if she's another one who won't 'follow through'.

Sorry about the extended rant; I'm a little hot under the collar over this whole mess. And I

can't get anyone to listen to me, because 'I'm not the best housekeeper' (YOU try having a clean

house with seven people in a 2 BRM, 1 Bath house, where only one person seems to give a

damn!) and 'they're not blood related' and 'you can't afford it'....Damn it, this is the only home

they've known where discipline is consistant; they aren't being dragged all over Hell's Half

Acre; and where someone actually cares about THEM, rather than their damn career/

lovelife! Yes, my SIL has just moved her boyfriend of the past year into her condo.

Who's the stable family unit here?