What do you do when a loved one makes a request, out of the blue, which knocks you speechless? When this loved one wants to act out a fantasy, which goes way beyond the boundaries of every moral belief you ever held?
"I just want this to be about pleasure and take this to the next level. Was hoping you'd want to, but if not, then okay...."
I'm soooo torn. On one hand, yes, it would certainly be exciting and also come under 'research'; on the other hand, seriously???? I'm adventurous, but don't think I'm THAT adventurous!
I mean, what happens if things go horribly wrong? I don't want this to affect our relationship. On one hand, if it enhances it, fine. If it's a one-time thing plus enhances it, fine. But what happens if I allow this and am so guilt-ridden afterward? Or this destroys our relationship?
It ultimately comes down to trust. And I do trust him.
I'm just not sure I trust myself to accept the consequences.